Self Care-Tip #6: Solitude

Hey Everyone!

I feel like I learn the most about myself when I’m alone. I haven’t always felt this way, in fact I used to spend a lot of time hiding behind people and activities just so I wouldn’t have to be alone. But getting older, I started to realize how much I enjoyed being alone. In not so many words, solitude became my solace from the world and I learned to embrace it. Those moments alone are where I began to learn the most about myself, so this week’s self-care tip is Solitude.

Based on a multitude of experiences coming of age, I’ve started to realize how terrified most people are of being alone. And I honestly don’t blame them, but it’s not as scary or boring as we tend to think. I’ve definitely been there and latched on to people out of fear of having to confront my own boredom and insecurities. Not to say that’s the case for everyone, but typically people are usually afraid to face some form of themselves, good or bad, so we tend to use others as a distraction from that. Given my life as an introvert and specificity in dealing with people, this was an extremely difficult challenge because I didn’t like or trust a lot of people. So when I finally found people that I genuinely connected to, I found myself wanting to be around them ALL THE time, lol. 

I knew the issues I had were with myself, but who wants to spend time confronting that when there are people who can make you feel better about yourself without having to deal with the pains of growing? I’ll admit it’s an extremely arduous task and I definitely understand why dealing with people who lift you up would be easier then confronting our own thoughts and feelings about ourselves.

College was my first lesson in solitude. I’ll never forget my first year, making friends and ultimately, having to make the decision to be alone, lol. Freshman year you meet so many people who you think you’re going to stay friends the entire time, but that’s usually pretty rare depending on the people involved. I’ll never forget calling my dad, complaining about how the ‘friends’ I made at the start of fall quarter had suddenly turned their backs on me come winter quarter (typical, lol). Upon expressing how hurt I was and not knowing what to do, without a second thought he told me ‘Well, be alone’. I sat on the other line in confused, young-freshman silence, and further expressed my displeasure and comfort with the idea, which he only continued to reply with my need to be alone. My fear only stemmed from the fact that at that time I didn’t know how and had a large fear of missing out on typical college memories. Later on, it became some of the best advice I’ve gotten to date.

These days, I’m at my best when I’ve spent some time alone. My dad’s advice has taken me such a long way in my adulthood and even allowed me to develop much better relationships with people. Most days, you can find me reading on my couch, listening to my record player with all the blinds closed, recharging and hiding from the world. My solitude gives me a peace of mind that no one else can give and constantly reinforces my overall sense of self. If there’s any time to do it, your late teens and 20s are the best time to learn about yourself. Don’t let these pictures fool you though, I do leave my house, lol. But a majority of the time unless my presence is requested or required, I tend to do a lot of things on my own. Through solitude I discover new places, new movies, new hobbies, new interests, and new facts about myself, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Contrary to popular belief, in moments of solitude is when we learn the most about ourselves, and while people can be amazing, they can also be very distracting from that.

My ultimate goal is to be at peace with myself, eliminate toxic feelings and elements and energies from my life, unlearn negative and harmful practices and thought patterns, stop checking for people that don’t check for me, create a space that’s nurturing for growth, so that I may generate loving energy for myself and others...

Don’t allow loneliness to scare you, learn to embrace it, it literally teaches you things you’d never know in the company of others. Use your solitude to strengthen your self-awareness, needs and wants. The moment I stopped letting it terrify me, it became my greatest asset and I learned more than I could ever imagine and even better people started to enter my life following suit. This goes for romantic, friendships, familial, and all that. My freshman year following my first run in with solitude, some of the most amazing people walked into my life unexpectedly and I built some of the best friendships I have to date. The moment I gave up using people as a crutch to counteract my own fears and anxieties regarding loneliness, I evolved into a better version of myself.

So go to the movies, download some music, go for a run, do your favorite activity, or cook yourself a nice meal, whatever it may be, do something nice for yourself. Take some alone time, whether it be 10 mins, 1 hour, 3 days, or an entire week spend some time with you, as I always say no one knows you better than you do and the only way to know those things is to embrace your solitude…

As usual, I hope this inspires you

Until next time,

Peace,

Dij<3